“I want to love Nigeria from afar and say I miss Suya”

Dear Diary, Fashion, Lifestyle, Oddities, People, Spurs, Travels and Recipies

“The skin colour of the slave masters changed but we’re not really free.”


“We used to be really excited back in the day, we would buy flags, share them, run around in green. Give to all our neighbours. Stick them on our cars.

But now, independence means nothing. It’s just another holiday where there’s no school or work. It’s like an extension.

We have countries where men died for causes and led battalions and that’s how far it goes. But the citizens know and understand, stay true to it, respect it, celebrate it and pass it down to their generations.

But the average Nigeria is suffering. I don’t know what we gained and what we’re enjoying because in many fields, outsiders rule and what do we have to show for it?

We’re independent but is it really what we want? If you’re not in a certain class, no one cares about you.

Your only crime in Nigeria is being poor.

57 years after and nothing to show for it. Look at where we are.

I would like for it to actually mean something but when your country has done less to make meaning of its independence you wonder how the “celebration” will ever mean a thing.

I would want to love Nigeria from afar and talk about how I miss suya and all but ultimately, I’m Nigerian and I love it but I will never delude myself that we are the best nation”

Those were his words when I spoke about October 1st with him this morning. Amongst all the conversations I had today on Nigeria’s independence, this took me.

On many levels, I relate and in as much as we hate to, we must admit to the truthfulness of it.

Nonetheless, as a Nigerian, I pray for a better Nigeria and I wish her fruitfulness.

In other events,

Yes, September was a month I was totally absent in this space but don’t fault me just yet. When I resume school (around October 17th) I will actually (for real this time, for real real for real) release the schedule.

Plus, I have an announcement that’s pretty big.

While that’s coming, I made myself green because…independence.


Happy Independence! Happy October! God bless Nigeria!


Happy 2017

Dear Diary, Fashion, Lifestyle, Oddities, People, Spurs, Travels and Recipies

Welcome to another year – 2017.

Like the scout motto, “Be prepared”.

This year is going to be one journey of a lifetime.

Ephesians 6:10-18 (NIV) reads:

10 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11 Put on the full armor of God,so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. 12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.13 Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14 Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, 15 and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. 16 In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17 Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.

18 And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the Lord’s people.


Everyday, remember these.

It’s 2017. Live it up!

Normal blogging will continue soon.




Sharon Ntan 19before97

2016 – I have let you go

Dear Diary, Fashion, Lifestyle, Oddities, People, Spurs, Travels and Recipies



I chose the 31st to post this because it’s the last day of the year (as is always).

2016 – I take it as my “make sense of your world” year. I deep thought about life. I sought meaning about certain things (and most things) and to a great extent I found answers.

It was one awe-filled year.

There were things which happened that I didn’t expect and things which didn’t happen that I also didn’t expect. This may seem normal as it’s a thing that comes with living life but then, there are levels to it.


I enjoyed the year.

Admist everything in between I found my fun and I had it. I explored and tried out new things. I went places and I met new people. I made time out for my friends who in return made even more time out for me. I continued blogging which has been a bumpy but interesting journey. I took countless pictures, made videos and I made people laugh and feel good about themselves.

Now the year has come to an end.

I am looking forward to the future (2017) and letting go of the past (2016). I chose to take all that happened to me in 2016 as stepping stones. And you should too. From everything to everything that revolves around this amazing thing called life.

Here is some 2017 advice from what my living in 2016 taught me:

On Christianity:

“I believe in Christianity as I believe that the sun has risen, not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else.” – C.S. Lewis

This is how I believe in God. This is how I take my faith.

On love:

“You can’t hurry love, you just have to wait.” – The Supremes.

When it’s ready it will come looking for you. Don’t try to hasten it. Sometimes it isn’t as it should be in the beginning but the end is always blissful. After all, it is love.

On friendships and relationships:

People will come and go. Get used to it. Don’t force something out of nothing. Don’t force anything at all. The healthiest relationships are the selfless ones. The ones that have the most ups and downs buy each party pulls through. There’s are a billion people to connect with in the world – don’t keep your eyed fixed on one. If at all, you want to fix your eyes. Fix it in Jesus Christ. He can be the bestest friend you can ever dream of.

On money:

Don’t kill yourself over searching for money. The death is not always physical. Don’t lose who you are for the monetary wealth (or anything at all). As my mother will say, “Money will pursue you and overtake you.” You will have it so much you’d wonder why. Don’t join them and say “recession” even if it seems to be. All it is, is a mist on a glass. Clear it.

If it gets you in the throat, just simply make a song with the words “Money cometh to me now” say it everyday like you’d say “Good morning”. Trust me it works. When I was was younger I heard a preaching with those words and I began saying it. Like a miracle, money came. And when it came, it came good.

But hey, don’t just sit at home saying it. Put your talent to work.

On character:

Don’t be a pest. Respect boundaries. Remember who you are and stay true to yourself.

On life:

Passion over profit. Don’t always ask what you stand to gain, do things because you love to and do it well – put much of yourself to it. Seek answers the most truthful way you can and be able to understand that you cannot make meaning out of everything that happens. Set goals.

Finally in similitude to E.E Cummings:

Let go…

Let all go

– the things too big you cannot handle

– the things too tall you cannot reach

– the things too small you cannot comprehend

– let all go my dear


Let them go

 – the truthful liars and the false friends and the boths and neithers

– you must let them go

– they were born to go.


Let it go

– the  heartaches and everything in between

– the things set to pull you down

–  let it go it was sworn to go

You’re about to begin again. So begin anew.



How about resolutions? They are like mini goals to me. To be content with all I have is my 2017 resolution/goal. It’s my goal every year. It’s always been my short, mid, long, career, ultimate goal in life. So for everything I do, I shape it around that. Just like Paul.

“11 Not that I was ever in need, for I have learned how to be content with whatever I have. 12 I know how to live on almost nothing or with everything. I have learned the secret of living in every situation, whether it is with a full stomach or empty, with plenty or little. 13 For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength.” – Philippians 4:11-13 (KJV)


There is a whole lot to come and we haven’t even seen quarter an inch of it. The times are ending but I will get through it by the Grace of God and so will you.




As per usual…



Sharon Ntan 19before97



Merry Christmas

Dear Diary, Fashion, Lifestyle, Oddities, People, Spurs, Travels and Recipies

Sharon Ntan 19before97



To you and your families, your neighbours and your friends. May all your days be filled with the kind of joy that never ends. May peace and love surround you this season and all the year through.

Have yourselves a merry merry Christmas!

Sharon Ntan 19before97

That is me telling you to eat and be merry because I know Christmas season is foooooooood season too.



Sharon Ntan 19before97


Dear Diary, Fashion, Lifestyle, Oddities, People, Travels and Recipies


“A thing of beauty is a joy for ever:
Its lovliness increases; it will never
Pass into nothingness; but still will keep
A bower quiet for us, and a sleep
Full of sweet dreams, and health, and quiet breathing.” –  John Keats


Welcome to December!

It really came fast but look, we’ve always been prepared.

May God keep you and bless you this new month.

The new year is near.

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Beautiful as in September

Dear Diary, Fashion, Lifestyle, Oddities, People, Spurs, Travels and Recipies

And God saw every thing that he had made, and, behold, it was very good. And the evening and the morning were the sixth day. – Genesis 1:31

let's chill!


The world is dark.

It’s difficult to see beauty in darkness.

There is radiance in beauty and everyone has beauty but only a few know it.

Know that you’re beautiful. Realize it and let your beauty be a form of light.

Light brings joy and that’s what we need.

You are beautiful. Not like those girls in the magazines.

The world is beautiful. Contrary to what is shown in papers.

The world is beautiful because of you.

Don’t beautiful for something as temporary as your physical appearance.

Be beautiful down to your soul.
And the world will always be beautiful.


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Hey August

Dear Diary, Fashion, Lifestyle, Oddities, People, Spurs, Travels and Recipies

The eighth month is here!

This means 5 months to my birthday!!! 😂😂😂 hahaha I’m too forward right? I’m sorry. I’m not the point here.

We’re here, first day gone, more to go!


Complete those things still pending.


Positivity helps your growing process.


To where ever you’ve gotten to – celebrate and reward yourself.


When things don’t work out as planned at first, let it go.


Don’t beat yourself over it, appreciate yourself.


I hope you’re ready.




I know you’re ready.

Have a blessed August.

God will see us all through and we will look back and smile 💜💜💜

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